On Robotics, Sex, and Chaos Theory

Probably the best essay ever written by George Hotz (not saying much)

Wow, George is writing an essay. The last time he wrote one of these, he got a 57 and an e-mail sent home to his parents, so therefore this has to be crap. Wrong. This essay is about things I actually care about. By the way, the freshman wanted me to write a story about them, but I wasn't feeling a story, so how about I dedicate this essay to you.

I spent the weekend at RoboGames. No doubt it was fun, although most of my bots got owned. At least Chipmunk got third. But not the point of the essay. Dr . Bath told me that I need to stay on topic while writing an essay and dammit I will try to do just that. So back to RoboGames. I came to a realization while I was there. I need to get a girl.

This isn't the first time I realized this; in fact about once a month I figure this out, but the actual process of getting a girl gets waylaid by other obligations such as science fairs, robotics, and schoolwork. Ok thats a lie, I usually just give up. But sometimes not before getting rejected.

I've been rejected plenty of times, and it is true what they say about the pain decreasing. Now when I'm rejected I barely feel anything. Like I think I could go to the mall, ask out 20 girls, get rejected by all of them, and still be smiling and laughing. I think rejection is kind of like cutting yourself for non emo people. Your brain still releases crap to block pain, be it emotional or physical.

There are still times rejection hurts like hell though. Like when you ask out a friend and she's like, "I don't really think of you that way". Insanely painful.. Because with some random hot girl at a mall, you can stop liking them as quickly as you can walk out the automatic door. With a friend, you need to face them everyday, while probably still liking them as much as you ever did.

In fact there are times I haven't been rejected, but I view most relationships similar to the way I view schools. I come into them ready to be the best {student, boyfriend} but start slacking off., because(to this day) theyhave never been what I expected. Maybe my next girlfriend/school will change all that.

Relationships have another inherent problem. While you like someone, you are blind to their faults, annoying habits, and whatever else you might not like about their personality. I was obsessed with this girl Kiera back in eighth grade. It took me two years to realize it, but I realized I didn't know her as a person at all. I had created my fantasy image of her, and when I say image, I mean personality, not physical traits. She was hot enough.  Sometimes I think my life's problems would have been solved if I went out with her, but that thought has no rational basis. Or does it?

Here's where chaos theory comes in. Basically if one very minor thing in space-time changes, it can have "the butterfly effect" and cause massive change to the present. (I know that that's the crappiest definition ever) So my life could be so far changed, although for better or worse who knows.  Going out with Kiera could have solved all my problems, or, although less likely, I could be dead right now. Just goes to show the randomness of chaos.

Say, for example, I got sleep the Wednesday before I was booted from battlebots. Well I wouldn't have been as pissed off, we would have started to build DeFalconite, and I would have went to Miami. I believe things in Miami and afterward would have turned out far differently. I can't really go into detail about the changes, but if you have the same information I do, hopefully you can draw the same conclusions (read the title carefully). Also there would have never been a Florida story.

Although there is one surefire way to deal with rejection. Write emo music. So expect George's first "album" to go up on lpahome within the next month. The title, "On Kiera, Traci, and a bunch of other girls that rejected me"